Loneliness taught me to keep busyFear of loneliness kept me busySo as not to risk vulnerability,falling on deaf earsSo, when others sought me, I raised my shield of busy-nessAnd sought the pages before me to hear me The downfallThe pages don’t talk backSo I’m left with revelations of my own designLeft uncheckedUntil my ignorant words … Continue reading Loneliness
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I Recall
The first time I laid eyes on youI called you over in recognitionWithout seeing your featuresWithout a second thought And that made me pause in the moment. I recognized you without ever knowing youWithout ever having been in your presenceThere was nothing to stir an emotionYet that knowing was deeply felt I brushed it off … Continue reading I Recall
Perceived Persona
A good friend of mine...that I haven't known for long...made an observation about me (us). Because we have similar traits and values, he was summarizing what his perception was about our motivations and seeking out a partner. Yes, we both want a partnership, an intimacy, that spurs us to slow down. We both keep ourselves … Continue reading Perceived Persona
Does That Scare You?
Does that scare you?To witness my unearthingAs I unravel myself and discover my depthsIn your presenceFirst handSo much soThat you feel the compulsion to stop meTo warn meThat it is dangerous to reveal oneself to others It is not boastfulnessIt is inspiration and excitementTo connectTo be vulnerableTo lay bare my core Is it too much … Continue reading Does That Scare You?
Pleasure and Sorrow
The Yoga Sutras have so much guidance. If you dig deep into the practice of yoga, you'll find that there's much more than the physical practice. The philosophy is that the Self is like an onion - by mastering/exhausting/utilizing the physical body, we are better able to reach inside ourselves to master our mental and … Continue reading Pleasure and Sorrow
When You Are Not You
I watched as you witheredYour eyes cloudedAnd you lost faith in yourself As your daughterI lost faithAnd detached myself from youWishing once more for the person I knew you were We were happy and inseparableAnd somehow you were convinced by another that you weren't strongOr didn't know what was good for us I watched as … Continue reading When You Are Not You
Time for Healing
Heartbreaks and Break ups are always full of information...after the initial recovery period of blaming and crying and what-ifs. What is completely evident this time around, is something that I knew beforehand. It is the exact thing that made me confident to say yes to an engagement, and the exact thing that convinced me to … Continue reading Time for Healing
How I Thrive & How It Consumes Me
I love food. I enjoy being in the kitchen. I enjoy meal planning and coming up with how food fits together for me to feel whole. I would spend most of my day in the kitchen looking through the cupboards if I could - even if they're mostly bare. Funny enough, I don't make the … Continue reading How I Thrive & How It Consumes Me
False Halts
Whenever a false roadblock appearsTo slow our fast footfallsFear encroaching upon the laughterI worry I worryThat the roadblock will growThat the laughter will diminishSimply fearing that what is will fadeAnd so it fadesNot because it would have naturallyBut because what is, is simply overwhelmingAlmost unfathomableStepping in front of our own happiness Is this what you … Continue reading False Halts
Committing
The men who are ready to commitEncourage me to be what they expectTo be ready to be claimedLay out a life already mapped out But I enjoy changeRoutine is a trapThe expected, driving my anxietyMy prepared mind goes too far aheadAnd I shake my hand from your embrace Be with me nowAnd maybe the future … Continue reading Committing