Loneliness taught me to keep busyFear of loneliness kept me busySo as not to risk vulnerability,falling on deaf earsSo, when others sought me, I raised my shield of busy-nessAnd sought the pages before me to hear me The downfallThe pages don’t talk backSo I’m left with revelations of my own designLeft uncheckedUntil my ignorant words … Continue reading Loneliness
Sometimes I need to screamSometimes I need to write it all outSometimes I need to stressTo figure it all out. Desires multiplyDown the tunnel I goDigging out - yet deeper I go The dirt beneath my nailsWrite the screams from my mindAnd alas I seeWhat echoes within me.
Reclaiming my heartMy limbs tingling from the reconnectPlugged back into the sourceMy reason for being I was lost trying to becomeBurnt from unfounded theoriesAs my heart searched for groundingAnd landed in the open air And now. Now I feel the soulGrounded in deep, rich, fertile soilA place to stand onA place to dig my feet … Continue reading Lost & Felt
I think I'm finally finding my wayTo connect the dotsBetween my seemingly ceaseless searchingAnd you. I never had a purpose to put pencil to paperOther than to exploreTo find meaning in my own heart And now,As I bounce between no and excessive timeI have to chooseHow to connect I look for patternsWhat I'm drawn toWhat … Continue reading Repurposing
The first time I laid eyes on youI called you over in recognitionWithout seeing your featuresWithout a second thought And that made me pause in the moment. I recognized you without ever knowing youWithout ever having been in your presenceThere was nothing to stir an emotionYet that knowing was deeply felt I brushed it off … Continue reading I Recall
Reflection is best recordedTo see where I've beenTo gain clarity on where I want to go Most times I only remember the good timesOther times I get engulfed in the loss Patterns reveal themselvesWhen I see the imagesWhen I read the wordsWhen I feel the memoriesAnd remind myself of lessons learned Where do I want … Continue reading Mirror
I stretchedFelt the voidAnd breathed deeply It awokeAnd yearned for moreWhich I gave in ecstasy And as it was satisfiedI felt the warmth on my skinThe ground beneath my bodyAnd spread myself further MoaningWhile I questioned why I ever stepped awaySinking deeperExpanding into the earth's embrace.
It's amazing how social input can affect my motivation and approach to tasks. I'm inspired to do something that would better myself and others, yet I'm finding two obstacles: I'm successful enough at one, that others (a significant number) are asking me why I would want to continue offering a lower cost and time-consuming alternative.I'm … Continue reading Reflecting on Social Input
A good friend of mine...that I haven't known for long...made an observation about me (us). Because we have similar traits and values, he was summarizing what his perception was about our motivations and seeking out a partner. Yes, we both want a partnership, an intimacy, that spurs us to slow down. We both keep ourselves … Continue reading Perceived Persona
Does that scare you?To witness my unearthingAs I unravel myself and discover my depthsIn your presenceFirst handSo much soThat you feel the compulsion to stop meTo warn meThat it is dangerous to reveal oneself to others It is not boastfulnessIt is inspiration and excitementTo connectTo be vulnerableTo lay bare my core Is it too much … Continue reading Does That Scare You?