Loneliness taught me to keep busyFear of loneliness kept me busySo as not to risk vulnerability,falling on deaf earsSo, when others sought me, I raised my shield of busy-nessAnd sought the pages before me to hear me The downfallThe pages don’t talk backSo I’m left with revelations of my own designLeft uncheckedUntil my ignorant words … Continue reading Loneliness
Sometimes I need to screamSometimes I need to write it all outSometimes I need to stressTo figure it all out. Desires multiplyDown the tunnel I goDigging out - yet deeper I go The dirt beneath my nailsWrite the screams from my mindAnd alas I seeWhat echoes within me.
Reclaiming my heartMy limbs tingling from the reconnectPlugged back into the sourceMy reason for being I was lost trying to becomeBurnt from unfounded theoriesAs my heart searched for groundingAnd landed in the open air And now. Now I feel the soulGrounded in deep, rich, fertile soilA place to stand onA place to dig my feet … Continue reading Lost & Felt
I think I'm finally finding my wayTo connect the dotsBetween my seemingly ceaseless searchingAnd you. I never had a purpose to put pencil to paperOther than to exploreTo find meaning in my own heart And now,As I bounce between no and excessive timeI have to chooseHow to connect I look for patternsWhat I'm drawn toWhat … Continue reading Repurposing
The first time I laid eyes on youI called you over in recognitionWithout seeing your featuresWithout a second thought And that made me pause in the moment. I recognized you without ever knowing youWithout ever having been in your presenceThere was nothing to stir an emotionYet that knowing was deeply felt I brushed it off … Continue reading I Recall
I stretchedFelt the voidAnd breathed deeply It awokeAnd yearned for moreWhich I gave in ecstasy And as it was satisfiedI felt the warmth on my skinThe ground beneath my bodyAnd spread myself further MoaningWhile I questioned why I ever stepped awaySinking deeperExpanding into the earth's embrace.
I watched as you witheredYour eyes cloudedAnd you lost faith in yourself As your daughterI lost faithAnd detached myself from youWishing once more for the person I knew you were We were happy and inseparableAnd somehow you were convinced by another that you weren't strongOr didn't know what was good for us I watched as … Continue reading When You Are Not You
The night sky overheadThe chill to the airI move: To feel somethingTo punish myself I feel the lonelinessI embrace itMake friends with itBecause I fear it is all that I will ever have To cry through movementTo scream with the staccatoTo forgive myself with the curves Fearing that my own touch will be all that … Continue reading Why Tonight
This moment simply ISThere is no anxiety or anticipationDoors aren't left half openWhatever pathway there isIs already laid bareReady for my foot falls Happily treadingBobbing to the sense of Freedom And then the first warm droplets fallA summer rainAnd the Anticipation comes Alive The droplets stirring the electricity just brimming beneath the surfaceMy breath escapes … Continue reading Pivot
There's that FeelingSensing something just around the cornerSomehow familiar yet newExciting and comforting The hairs on my arms and neck stand alertReady to take it all inBreathing deeplyYet catching in my chest I could blame it on this nightDamp and warmThe air light yet heavyTeasing me I want to be envelopedBeyond what this humid night … Continue reading Expand to the Next