Bet or Fold

Hope and fear intertwine Caught midtsep Awaiting further instruction Can I place my bet? Or fold. The initial buy-in a risk in itself Vulnerability that can ruin everything that I am A steady intention evidently rare Simultaneously the foundation of who you are And not what you want in the present I could fold prematurely … Continue reading Bet or Fold →

Integrity

I used to believe that integrity was a simple notionI believe and I do, and I alignYet, in the wild, ideals are tested and asked,"But is it okay if I test this line?" I often reply,"Well, that's okay"And feel a nag where my ear meets my neckMy voice wants to objectBut can't find the words … Continue reading Integrity →

Loneliness

Loneliness taught me to keep busyFear of loneliness kept me busySo as not to risk vulnerability,falling on deaf earsSo, when others sought me, I raised my shield of busy-nessAnd sought the pages before me to hear me The downfallThe pages don’t talk backSo I’m left with revelations of my own designLeft uncheckedUntil my ignorant words … Continue reading Loneliness →

Lost & Felt

Reclaiming my heartMy limbs tingling from the reconnectPlugged back into the sourceMy reason for being I was lost trying to becomeBurnt from unfounded theoriesAs my heart searched for groundingAnd landed in the open air And now. Now I feel the soulGrounded in deep, rich, fertile soilA place to stand onA place to dig my feet … Continue reading Lost & Felt →

Repurposing

I think I'm finally finding my wayTo connect the dotsBetween my seemingly ceaseless searchingAnd you. I never had a purpose to put pencil to paperOther than to exploreTo find meaning in my own heart And now,As I bounce between no and excessive timeI have to chooseHow to connect I look for patternsWhat I'm drawn toWhat … Continue reading Repurposing →

I Recall

The first time I laid eyes on youI called you over in recognitionWithout seeing your featuresWithout a second thought And that made me pause in the moment. I recognized you without ever knowing youWithout ever having been in your presenceThere was nothing to stir an emotionYet that knowing was deeply felt I brushed it off … Continue reading I Recall →

Ignore the Clock

Let the sun riseFog settleRelief from the weighted darknessFirst grounded footfalls Security in the silenceComfort in the release No mind to the tickingIt does not existNo time feltChill prickles untended

Why Tonight

The night sky overheadThe chill to the airI move: To feel somethingTo punish myself I feel the lonelinessI embrace itMake friends with itBecause I fear it is all that I will ever have To cry through movementTo scream with the staccatoTo forgive myself with the curves Fearing that my own touch will be all that … Continue reading Why Tonight →

Pivot

This moment simply ISThere is no anxiety or anticipationDoors aren't left half openWhatever pathway there isIs already laid bareReady for my foot falls Happily treadingBobbing to the sense of Freedom And then the first warm droplets fallA summer rainAnd the Anticipation comes Alive The droplets stirring the electricity just brimming beneath the surfaceMy breath escapes … Continue reading Pivot →

Expand to the Next

There's that FeelingSensing something just around the cornerSomehow familiar yet newExciting and comforting The hairs on my arms and neck stand alertReady to take it all inBreathing deeplyYet catching in my chest I could blame it on this nightDamp and warmThe air light yet heavyTeasing me I want to be envelopedBeyond what this humid night … Continue reading Expand to the Next →