Literally and figuratively, going sleeveless has been good for my soul. I have learned enough in this life to be okay with being hurt, with trying something new, with completely putting myself out there.
I had an audition yesterday where the norm was to show skin, and I’ve only recently learned that I’ve been wearing clothes that were nowhere near my actual size. Now that I’ve started wearing clothes that actually fit me, I’ve found a new sense of confidence, of showing off my arms, and (gasp!) even my stomach. Being in my mid-thirties, I wouldn’t think that this would be acceptable. But, you know what? Screw it. I look younger than I am, it looks good on me, and it makes me feel good to show off more than I have in years.
Emotionally, I’ve learned that people connect more with vulnerability. In the age of putting on a smile and only showing what is photogenic, we all want to know that it’s still okay to not be okay, to want a shoulder to lean on, to be able to share all of what makes us up as a human. It’s what makes us interesting and complex.
I’m terrible at hiding my feelings unless you give me a reason not to trust you with them. I do witness your reactions to gauge how much I can share, but I will share my world with you if you let me.
I’ve also learned that trying to hold back to avoid complication just makes things more complicated. Not only are you lying to yourself, but you’re doing an injustice to your relationship with the other person. Vulnerability is met with conditions, which breeds doubt and insecurity, and leads to unintentional hurt. Just be honest with how you feel and what you want. Owning those emotions allows for a natural path that will always come with twists, turns, and forks. I believe it’s better to honestly discover them and what they hold, than to hold back in fear of them – only to create more obstacles that get in the way of your happiness. Get out of your own F**n way. Just saying.
Try going Sleeveless.
It might surprise you just how much easier it is to handle what life has to throw at you.